Hello my beloved readership,

become one with the earth wearing the trend colors of May soft rose and brown and feel immunity against pain by breathing it away.

I would like to start today’s story with a retrospective on the antenatal class: One of the very first things we dealt with was pain. Among others in a group we had to work out in a group how you feel about pain when you get hurt and how reactions could look like. Why treating such a topic in this class? In order to find at least one good way for us to deal with probably one of the most hurtful pains in the world, the labour pain. But even the labour pain you can survive and get over it pretty quickly, once you are holding your child in your hands, even though that moment of about two minutes feels like an eternity. Meanwhile I hardly remember that feeling of pain, all that I remember is the way I dealt with it and how surprised I have had been about myself that I have chosen exactly that kind of way to assimilate the pain…

“No matter if we differ between emotional or physical pain, the suffer is the same.”
– Fall4Me

Crying, cursing, complaining… there are many ways of reacting to pain and then we feel better. No matter if we differ between emotional or physical pain, the suffer is the same. But what does each woman do? What is each women told as the first labour pain takes place? Breathe. Breathe the pain away. Lately I have been suffering from a very hurtful emotional pain I cannot get over. I do not want to hide what is torturing me: someone who is a mother of two little children, someone whom I have considered my family said the following words to me “I hope that your negative attitude is not going to be transferred to your child.” … Meanwhile I am able to speak out these words but in the beginning I was not capable of doing that without breaking down into very(.) bitter(.) tears which I am never going to forget about. I cannot stop thinking about this confrontation. I get into rage because I know what I do for my child day for day and firmly know that I did not deserve this, I am shocked how one mother is capable of saying this to another mother and I regret that I have not given her a spicier answer. In case you read this: Is it not a little bit coward of your wannabe “strong” husband to hide behind the “blocking”-function and sending you to bark? Pathetic folk! These words come from a narrow-minded person who is a result of manipulation. Your so called compliments ahead you could have as well shoved into your ass!

But enough of that. Now that I have spoken about this deep-lying pain I feel like I can end this chapter once and for all but what is more important is that before that whenever such a negative thought wanted to nest in my mind I was simply breathing it away like a labour and it worked this way. So whenever you feel such a negative emotional pain and you feel like you are going to explode if you do not speak about it, breathe it away. Out of experience I can tell you it works, just like slapping away a fly.

Softened Brown: Become Stable Yet Strong, Like The Earth

Having emotional struggles in mind I remember religion class in my early days of junior high school: we talked about items such as water, stones, earth and many more. How are these things connected to religion, you wonder? All these things exist for the eternity, they cannot and you cannot really harm them but the prize for this eternal life is lifelessness. No feelings, no emotions, hardly any real actions. I would like to get back the the major question of that topic treated: Which of these would you like to be? We have heard many answers and plausible explanations. Today my answer is: I want to be the earth, stable and strong yet soft or rather tender because despite all the burden it is confronted with in everyday life it regenerates if getting torn apart and it holds out against anything. It is in complete control over itself and is ready to face it all every single day anew. Above all the earth is a protector as well as a creator of life. It maintains an admirable calmness we can take as good example in order not to explode when our limits are reached. The earth itself may not seem to have feelings but it turns out to catch everyone and give them halt from falling – not only literally. We can take the earth as good example to get in complete control of ourselves despite all steps taken onto us.

My Look in Details:

• Long cardigan by Zara
• T-shirt with slogan by Orsay
• Treggings by Vero Moda
• Velours leather moccasins by walkx women
• Stud earrings by TOSH
• Belt by Tally Weijl
• Eye-shadow by Chanel
• Lipstick “Whipped Caviar” by NYX Professional Make-Up

Love, Johanna